Left Behind In Shadows by cedarlynmcgee, literature
Literature
Left Behind In Shadows
I'm always left behind, left in the shadows of past friends.
I'm forgotten, locked away from the world I thought I knew.
A world I thought I belonged to.
But I'm blinded with saddnesss, anger and hatred.
I scream inside, but on the outside, I'm a person hiding behind a mask.
No one hears my cries,
my screams.
No one sees my sadness,
my scars.
No one feels my pain,
my loneliness.
No one can sense the real me present.
They walk by.
I'm invisible to others.
But sometimes I want to scream that I'm not.
It's Never The Same... by cedarlynmcgee, literature
Literature
It's Never The Same...
I want to spread my wings once more,
to be free of this pain I hold in my heart,
a box full of secrets, lies and truths.
But I can't let go of the memories that are inside.
I can't tell the secrets, the lies a burden in my mind.
I'm lost inside, screaming for help.
... But no one hears the cries and screams that are hidden behind this mask I wear.
I won't break out.
I can't,
And I won't.
I don't have the strength.
I'm just a lost cause, a touch of forgotteness in a lingering shadow.
There is sadness in my eyes,
that I cannot hide.
I can't turn away.
If I run, it'll catch me.
If I hide, it'll find me.
If I lie, I'll be punished.
I never thought that this would happen.
Its suppose to happen to other people,
strangers that I don't know.
Not me.
Not ever.
Why me?
It's because I'm being punished
and I must live with it.
Because of you....
I'm dying inside.
Afraid to go out in the world.
Afraid that everyone will be against me.
Afraid of being alone for too long.
Because of you....
I'm fighting a lie.
I hide them from myself but...
it never lasts long.
Secrets and lies...
they only hurt in the future
instead of wanting to protect the one thing in the past
that happened to change everything.
Because of you...
I'm in pain.
No one sees the pain I suffer.
No sees that hope is lost to me.
No one knows...
and I tear myself to pieces
my heart broken in two.
Because of you....
I cry blood red tears.
You'll never understand me...
never kn
I feel so alone.
There's nothing no one can do.
I watched myself fail.
I watched myself die.
I tried to hard to save myself from the darkness
but it doesn't matter anymore.
I'm trapped inside.
I can't escape.
I'm always left behind.
In the dark, alone and forgotten.
I think to myself,
I am a burden
or a thing- an object- that isn't wanted.
I'm always left behind,
I have dreams,
but they are shattered.
I have goals
but they are crushed.
No one cares.
Not even me.
But I know,
Inside....
I really do care...
and I want someone else to care as well.
I'm
tired of crying...
I'm
tired of being pushed away
I'm
tired of being ignored
I'm
tired of being hurt
I...
want to know if I'm heard.
I don't want to have goodbye on my mind....
Sitting in the darkness, alone.
My thoughts come to life...
I ask myself why I broke.
Why I gave up
Why have I changed.
But I haunt myself with the question...
Why am I mistaken as a lost cause.
I'll never know....
Part of me does.
... the other part,
wants it to a be a nightmare,
one I'll wake up from in the end.